Over the past few months life and the continual pursuit of meaningful balance has taken a hit. I was lucky over the past couple of weeks to have some time off from work with which I was able to find some new perspective.
Starting in August work began to become more and more stressful. Most of the time I am able to manage stress and I generally do well to keep in mind what is actually important in life. I have been getting caught up in so much of the small meaningless stress that I let the bigger picture get out of focus. Two weeks ago today my wife gave birth to our second daughter. My wife going into labor is what finally slapped me back down to earth. I was forced, by breaking water, to not even consider work for about a 48 hour period. By the time we had things well under control I realized that the work that had been weighing on me and keeping me awake at night was still there and that it would either get done without me or it would be able to wait. It made the remaining week and a half of 2011 more rewarding than many I have ever had. I now am the proud father of two girls and am more in love with my wife than ever before.
Going back to work today was strangely "ok". I have finally come to the realization that no, I do not love what I do, and for now, that is ok because I can continue to the do it and do it well until I find something that drives and fulfills me. Happy New year, here is to making 2012 incredible.
